Handful of Traumas- a Before and After
I’ve been thinking about that joke (that’s not exactly a joke) lately even though I'm not considered young anymore- but I was often told this when I was younger. I've been wondering if my recent quest for more organization and planning is a return of what I used to be like before the trauma or a result from the trauma- or is it a little bit of both? Now when I say “trauma” I mean it a very broad sense; from the commonplace adolescence, relationships, break ups, moving out, motherhood, to the more extreme of rape, bereavement, depression, and religion, to name a few. I also mean “trauma” more in the sense of a life-changing event, not necessarily all terrible. To me, motherhood is definitely not terrible overall neither was having to move a few times, nor is my experience with religion. But probably the most life-changing event or mindset shift that took place with me was shortly after I tried to ‘end it all’ at 15. Shortly after my suicide attempt, my da